Angels
Faith nearly caused me to drive off the road a few weeks
ago. I was driving my grandma’s old 1997
Ford Expedition (also lovingly referred to as “La Bamba”) into town carting her
to the pool with Jacob and Teags. Jonner
was off at summer camp and it was a warm and lovely summer afternoon for a pool
trip. She piped up from her seat, “Mommy,
who was the fuzzy white person sitting on daddy in the accident?” While a knot rose up in my throat I tried to
manage some cohesive words to answer her inquest. “Ummm, what are you talking about sweetie?” She just flowed into the conversation as if
we were discussing her favorite movie or candy or flowers. “When we were hit there were lights coming in
the front windows. The lights moved
around the car, and then came in daddy’s window. When I looked over at him there was someone
all in fuzzy white sitting on him. Then
the lights left, and the fuzzy white person carried daddy out of the car.”
I know that Kit was carried out of the car. In fact I have imagined that he was wrapped
in an angel’s embrace and held as he flew 70 feet out of the window of our car
and skidded to a stop in the middle of Highway 78. His survival of that seemingly deathly
journey has been evidence to me that he was indeed held, and while he was
severely wounded, he was spared from mortal injury. All of his injuries came within a breath’s
distance from ending his life, but didn’t crush life from him. He had major scalp wounds, but his beautiful
brain was only slightly bruised. He had
a fracture of one of the vertebrae in his mid back, but was not paralyzed. His vital organs were not even damaged. Medically the likelihood that he died on that
road was very, very high. As a doctor I
am fully aware of each “bullet” he dodged.
But that has not been conversation that has been had around sweet
Faith. Those details would have only
served fear up in her heart after that night, and so many of the details were
kept from her. She didn’t see him after
the accident other than his silhouette as she was carried to safety away from
our car by a kind stranger.
So when my 4 year old love asked about the fuzzy white person it took my
breath away. While I tried to regain the
ability to produce words Teags (my concrete thinking 7 year old) answered her, “That
was probably just a man or woman all dressed in white.” Jacob immediately responded, “Teagan, there
was no man or woman in white sitting on dad’s lap in the car. Faith, you must have seen an angel.” She then asked me, “Mom are angels invisible,
or can we see them?” And with that I was
able to finally get some words to come forth.
“The Bible says that sometimes we can see angels, and sometimes we
cannot. Some people have been in the presence
of angels and not known it. But I
believe you saw the angel that protected daddy, and God gave you a special
gift. He gave you the ability to see the
angel that saved daddy in the accident.”
And then she moved on in the conversation to share the joy she had about
going to the pool.
My sweet baby girl saw a fuzzy white angel carry her daddy
out of the car in the middle of the darkest night of our lives. She was given a beautiful gift of sight to
see the presence of angels that we believe were with us in our peril. In the months following the terror she spontaneously shares her memories. Some
of them fill me with the dread, as she retells the events from her
innocent eyes. But this sweet memory
allowed me to be filled with joy and gratitude.
I know Kit was held, a knowledge that is based on my faith. She saw him being held with her own two eyes.
As we move forward, beyond this event that has shaped, and
scarred, and strengthened us, scripture has come alive to me as never before. Like these verses in Psalms 91, “For he will
command his angels concerning you to guard
you in all your ways; they will lift you
up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone…’because
he loves me’ says the Lord, ‘I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he
acknowledges my name. He will call on me
and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.’” God in his infinite mercy had angels carrying
Kit and holding all of us as well. We
were rescued, and protected, and for that we are grateful beyond words that can
be written or spoken adequately. And I,
for one, am planning on watching out for people dressed all in fuzzy white, as I
believe fully that angels are all around us.
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